diminishments

(An old girl from 2009)

diminishments


one of ours got scraped out 

no more eggs, babies, parts


hands made hollow and poured the green glow,

shook her up like dressing


starved to a nothing-husk 

gold hair gone, full lips crack the black hole


and our grandmother, her hip-pin slip out 

bones gone to pudding


she rides the bed, claws clipped 

nothing to admire now


my guts turn out no end 

these are these days, evidence in the bowl 


cutting everyone off like blooms.

sucking breath back, and the blood alone

Moon Phase

An old, old one. Still timely, and more so.

Moon phase

1. You’re purple phase: strapless, lavender, violet ‘P’ necklace, quilted, plum ankle-straps. Or the silk, mulberry and gold, backless. When the time came for me to wear it, I didn’t. You unpinned the shoulders to match your mouth.

2. In a rage, home late, grabbing me from sleep, wrenched arm, dropping the dresser drawers out on me. Refold, refold. And when all of the tissues in the wastebasket reappeared: “not used enough.” You didn’t speak to me for weeks. Mercy.

3. But your back broken now. The right side inches above the other. Your hips are turning around on you, spine craning your head. A mess of moles marking. When did they come? You climb into bed at every chance. All those times I stomped on cracks crying & what you will do.

4. There’s something small, & spun. Thinner than nerves, it lines and wonders at you like things you know from white-haired women, and what my Grandfather smelled like. How you can make everything work like vulnerable swaddling, what all your hands can hold, my hope. And before boiling my bath, before my skin at the second degree: something like a nectar clinging to the insides, ensuring it works, then burning.