Think of how the town Juliet
was next to Romeo.
And the citizens thought:
that is too precious.
So Romeo became Romeoville,
and Juliet is Joliet.
Think of how we can’t stand
anything we can feel.
saturn
olden instructional films
and the correct order
– for introducing everyone
– opening rolls to butter
– resting your not-in-use knife
– greeting your date’s clothing
– zig zag eating vs. continental
– separate the sediment by pour
– never cover the gun arm
one fine thing for another
More of it
In the red clay, I scoop a low grave, roll into it, rust across white cloth. The lion pawing, howls to get back out. It drags me by the dress-neck, summons fire and a circle of ancestors to minister a liquid. Nothing takes.
A teacher explains I’m just in a bad etheric neighborhood, no need to stay. The lion manages me across its back, walks us out of the landscape. It drags me to a fountain chiseled from quartz, leaves me there, licks at my limbs.
At which point the water matters, at which point the garden matters, who knows?
I beg my own root open, melt past fear with gold light.
In the waking, my dog declines, loses her weight, fur over bones and skin gone wonky. Jupiter squares my Moon, Neptune chokes it. I steadily leave myself. At the oil, spike, and rock shop, a reverend says he can see, shoves bloodroot at me, golden calcite, says why wait.
Every dream is me
standing over my body
breathing
get up, get up, get up.
receiving
I made a storm.
Before that, on the table, the new widower punctured my limbs and ears, drew blood at the third eye. He left me to align and later held my neck and asked me what I saw. I told him, an expanse of tall grasses blowing on a white-cloud clear day, but I was on one side of a short wooden rod fence. An Eastern Bluebird appeared in my left hand and seemingly near death, discombobulated. Suddenly a worm appeared in its beak, and it flew off, revived. I hopped the low fence and began walking through the expanse of grass. My dead dog was with me. It felt futile, just grass forever.
Resigned to it, but then a lion. A massive male lion walked to me, conveying protection, as a familiar. It led me to a tree I climbed to rest. I picked and ate the tree’s fruit in the shade. Satisfied, it left to hunt, returning with a bloody muzzle. It slept under the tree.
We awoke and kept walking, but just grasslands. The other dog joined us. I tell the lion the dog isn’t food and the lion accepts this, leading us on. There are more of us now, but I wonder if this is just it, forever, the same landscape.
Later, I see a well under a tree. I pull up the rope up. Inside a bucket is midnight blue silk cloth. I lower it again and draw up a silver spoon. I think of my Grandfather. Again, and this time it’s a green frog inside the bucket. I put the items in a hip pouch and lower it once more. A yellow canary or goldfinch rides up on the side of the bucket and flies away.
That night I turn on a show. In it, a woman walks out of the exact house I dreamed that I owned, over a year ago.
Last night I made a storm outside that cracked at the ground and shook the houses like shoulders. Went to bed sweeping at the sky for the breeze to break heat, and rain so I wouldn’t have to water. Weather is not stubborn.
2 versions / drafts
lunation
the way to your home
a white pet struck
fur blows the road
cat crossing your yard.
my hand casts a line
sacraments your path
breath gone to seed
nearing your sleep.
a raccoon breaks,
stirring the ground ash
pads my intention—
featherfoil, sanguinary.
all the times I’ve seen you,
and you’ve never seen me.
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lunation
the way to your home
a white pet struck
fur blows the road
cat crossing your yard.
my hand casts a line
sacraments your path
breath gone to seed
nearing your sleep.
all the times I’ve seen you,
and you’ve never seen me.
i was here
part company
then the ground
was shatter and smooth
over something harder.
the same as my chest
filled up tar molasses;
before that, heavy cream,
sand, ornaments.
I pointed up, slow,
second place fireflies–
my body strobing
memory drum and limp nails
on floorboards, the ceiling
hit between tasks,
time measured off.
a heat register’s cloud
and fall from standing–
speaking glued shut.
synapse panicked syllables
a metronome’s tick
repeating at the tremor
(2004. 4 of 28 drafts I’ve never done anything with, being resolved into notes and outlines.)
Linden
leaves stick
the dog paws
soles gone
seasonal slippers
Wasps test
nurses, guards
defended entrances
flex dread
I pull blossoms
weeping sap tea
aphid trails
transformational honey
steep the
brittle end
(8/18. 3 of 28 drafts I’ve never done anything with, being resolved into notes and outlines.)
women at the hellmouth
First season, that hasn’t aged well, and frosted lip gloss. The slayer dropping her bag. The wardrobe was never good. Solids are characters in their power. She says James Spader is hot. This ages well.
Our first combat, our first use of the library, I’m nervous about Jenny. Patterns are hormones, textures anxieties. In being taught how to watch, every escape is natal. Devotion is at the earth’s threshold.
Darla is brilliant, her trajectory beyond the half season. Watch this sire, common-law, sex worker. This will come up again, how-to stratify women, their sex a map legend. How she is the entrance and exit.
This is our first hero shot.
(2 of 28 drafts I’ve never done anything with, being resolved into notes and outlines.)
solar return
the best birthday I get
is as many loved
ones since the Sun is
lucky, and better than
being at the doctor,
So, success. It feels like
tripping thanks &
correct begin. So much
honing off of, shivering
in alignment.
(1 of 28 drafts I’ve never done anything with, being resolved into notes and outlines.)
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