Think of how the town Juliet
was next to Romeo.
And the citizens thought:
that is too precious.
So Romeo became Romeoville,
and Juliet is Joliet.
Think of how we can’t stand
anything we can feel.
Think of how the town Juliet
was next to Romeo.
And the citizens thought:
that is too precious.
So Romeo became Romeoville,
and Juliet is Joliet.
Think of how we can’t stand
anything we can feel.
olden instructional films
and the correct order
– for introducing everyone
– opening rolls to butter
– resting your not-in-use knife
– greeting your date’s clothing
– zig zag eating vs. continental
– separate the sediment by pour
– never cover the gun arm
one fine thing for another
Pisces full moon feelings w/ a side of Uranus in Taurus.
In the red clay, I scoop a low grave, roll into it, rust across white cloth. The lion pawing, howls to get back out. It drags me by the dress-neck, summons fire and a circle of ancestors to minister a liquid. Nothing takes.
A teacher explains I’m just in a bad etheric neighborhood, no need to stay. The lion manages me across its back, walks us out of the landscape. It drags me to a fountain chiseled from quartz, leaves me there, licks at my limbs.
At which point the water matters, at which point the garden matters, who knows?
I beg my own root open, melt past fear with gold light.
In the waking, my dog declines, loses her weight, fur over bones and skin gone wonky. Jupiter squares my Moon, Neptune chokes it. I steadily leave myself. At the oil, spike, and rock shop, a reverend says he can see, shoves bloodroot at me, golden calcite, says why wait.
Every dream is me
standing over my body
breathing
get up, get up, get up.
Last night I made a storm outside that cracked at the ground and shook the houses like shoulders. Went to bed sweeping at the sky for the breeze to break heat, and rain so I wouldn’t have to water. Weather is not stubborn.
2 versions / drafts
lunation
the way to your home
a white pet struck
fur blows the road
cat crossing your yard.
my hand casts a line
sacraments your path
breath gone to seed
nearing your sleep.
a raccoon breaks,
stirring the ground ash
pads my intention—
featherfoil, sanguinary.
all the times I’ve seen you,
and you’ve never seen me.
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lunation
the way to your home
a white pet struck
fur blows the road
cat crossing your yard.
my hand casts a line
sacraments your path
breath gone to seed
nearing your sleep.
all the times I’ve seen you,
and you’ve never seen me.
i was here
The first half of the movie A Quiet Place is the closest thing I’ve experienced to an accurate metaphor of what it’s like living with C-PTSD. It’s like that, all the time, except no one is there with you, or understands at all.
Friends if this is also you, you might want to skip it. Personally, I found it relieving, less isolating, to see something portray this experience.
then the ground
was shatter and smooth
over something harder.
the same as my chest
filled up tar molasses;
before that, heavy cream,
sand, ornaments.
I pointed up, slow,
second place fireflies–
my body strobing
memory drum and limp nails
on floorboards, the ceiling
hit between tasks,
time measured off.
a heat register’s cloud
and fall from standing–
speaking glued shut.
synapse panicked syllables
a metronome’s tick
repeating at the tremor
(2004. 4 of 28 drafts I’ve never done anything with, being resolved into notes and outlines.)
Linden
leaves stick
the dog paws
soles gone
seasonal slippers
Wasps test
nurses, guards
defended entrances
flex dread
I pull blossoms
weeping sap tea
aphid trails
transformational honey
steep the
brittle end
(8/18. 3 of 28 drafts I’ve never done anything with, being resolved into notes and outlines.)